IS IT POSSIBLE?

so in my last post i was saying that i know someone at church whos mother may have found info on my father.
i didnt get my hopes up, and im still not.

tonight i was at church, so was this individual, whom i asked about this info.
she said her mother was almost positive she had found my dad, but needed some of MY family history to make sure. not sure why. but, ok. i gave what i could remember off the top of my head to her. numbers, dates, locations, i cant remember, i do good to remember 3 gernerations back on my grandmothers side the names of these people..lol

i asked if this indivdual she thought was my dad was alive, or dead. and the answer came back: dead.

im greatful for that because it means i dont have to wonder. i can move past it and go from there.
at the same time. im diapointed i never got to know the man, or ask that one question : "why didnt you love me enough to stay around?"
i have to say, im pleased i dont have to go through the emotional stuff with the latter. i dont know if id handle it too well.

heck, who knows. this ndividual might not even be my father to begin with.
but...what if it is.

ya know? i have never really thought much about looking past him, i mean ive thought about the names of his mother and father, and putting this data into a space to be held, so its recorded, but i have never thought much about who they are. what they were like.
His mother would have been born around the same time as my grandmother.
1900s
i wonder what she was like.
if she was kind like my moms mother (my grandmother) was.
or was she more like my mother.
i may never know. that family line may never go any further than my fathers name.

i guess, we shall see.

MICHELLE

COULD IT POSSIBLY BE? somone has found my fathers line?

the way this all came about was, to me happenstance, im sure to God (or what youd call your Higher Power, if you believe in one) it was by design.

im a Family History Consultan in my church. i was called to help oher people assist them in finding thier family trees, so they can complete them as much as possible.
the entire time, i have felt very...sad about being in there. i go into the class, and i have a heavy heart. dont want to be there, just about cant do anything to keep me in the room, if i can manage to get out, i want out.
and thats all because being in there breaks my heart because i want to find my dad.

so, we, as a class have come too see that the time frame we have to have class in, 50 minutes isnt long enough to do everything: watch a sort video, go over the book, and then get online to do any family history.
a couple of sundays ago, craig and myself and another family history consultant was in class and there was no one there to have class with.
the bishop (preacher man) walks by, asks what were doing.
we said we were waiting for ppl to come to class, if they wanted to.

he ran a list of names by us, with only a few ever having attended.

and i mentioned to him, im available wednesday nights to be at church to be available for anyone who might want to do any family history, if he thought that was a good idea.
to which he did.

so, this past wednesday (2nd one i was there since i mentioned to bishop) i was there, again waiting for anyone to come to find out about family history stuff, do any.
and one of the sisters i have just started to talk too and i were talking, and i cant remember how we got to this part of the conversation, because we started out talking about food storage...i mentioned i cant find my dad anywhere online.

and she told me wed meet the following wednesday, hook up on her cell with her mother, and have her mother run some data and see if she can find this elusive man.
sounded like a plan. i didnt have any more hope than any other time. but i figured it was worth a shot. this ladys mother has been doing this for 30 years. so, whats to lose, right?

well, i connected to the lady i was talking to on Facebook, and all day we have been chatting, i gave the info over to her, to hand off to her mother...went to take a nap.
came back, this ladys asking me to get in touch with her cause she has to aks me some more stuff, her moms on a trail!

ON A TRAIL!
OF A MAN NAMED ROBERT ALAN MANNING!
USING ONLY THE DATA I HAVE GIVEN!
IS IT POSSIBLE?
how can it be?
ive had really good people look for him and get No where. it has become such a struggle im beginning to think this mans name ISNT the one i have on my birth certificate!

yet, some complete stranger can find him? like that?
if its true...its not a coincidence! its devine!

all i want is some data, then i can go from there.
his birthday, birth place, mothers name, fathers name. i think i can go from there.

at least if i know if hes dead or alive, i can work with that too.

but what do i do if he is alive? should i contact him? asking for family history? im not sure i want to talk to him.
id ask him 1 question "WHY?" why wasnt he in my life?
pretty sure i know the answer that hes gonna give.

in all honesty, id prefer he be passed away, less drama and thought.
i can have closure, and get my mother and father sealed to each other, to be able to be sealed to them..

COULD IT BE POSSIBLE?

Michelle